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Monday, November 30, 2009 @ 2:40 AM

Had a big quarrel with him again yst night. . damn it. .BLACK MOOD!! Go ahead and find other "gals", so good then ask them, do everything you wanted and follow the way u led!! Pissed of me. . Whatever, dun call and scold if ever u know i go out with other guys or go club with my friends, i won't hesitate to even make up lies to you. . HATED!!

Didn't sleep for the whole night, quarrel and argued till 6plus!, 7plus 8 in the morning then fell asleep. Woke up 4~5 plus in the noon, meet Kimshui and Bryan at my house downstairs for our **breakfast, went back home bath, prepared and headed off to lot one meet Elsie for dinner. After that meet the guys at jurong point again for movies "Ninja Assassin (2009)" Nice Show!! Went to boon lay for our supper. . god getting more and more fatter, gonna on diet. . guys please dun always ask me eat eat eat, dun noe how many kg i've put on this few days. . aaarrggghhh.

Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 3:23 AM

Woke up in the morn, as usual, do posting for boy. . Fall asleep back, woke up by my two cousin, they came by to lent dvds from my dear brother. Dad called, headed to lot one for our breakfast then went back home. . Around 10plus, Kimshui and bryan called, asked me out for supper, acc them go over Bedok for iguana, hahas the creature damn cute lo look like pig and look like fish lo dun now wad lo, but i dun dare to touch. . Ltr on boy called and we quarrel again. . u can go out, drink with ur friends ur buddies, what about me? Quarrel till 4plus in the mite, damn tired, i surrender, told boy everything. . finally, we are fine back. . asked him to go the bed early as he still got to wake up for work tml. . Its getting late, should stop here first. . gd night. . .

I'm sorry

Labels: I'm sorry. .

Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 10:17 AM

27.11.09

Boring, just came back home from supper with bryan and kimshui at my house downstairs. Felt so confused about every thing, work, study and him. .Msg boy about the posting, if i knew he wasn't at home at this time, i wouldn't even msg him and ask him where is he. Angry. . nowadays, everytime heard him, stay out late, drink with company ppl. . felt damn irritated listening to all this shits. . If i know he will turn his life this way, in the first place i shouldn't have intro him this job and make myself worry about it. Just like mum said, someday he will change if he works in this line in future. . and he's slowly changing i guess. . Sometimes, i really wish i can stop caring about every single things that concerns about you and do whatever i want for myself. . can i? Why must it be, whenever i felt tired about you, wanting to stop looking at my phone for your miss calls then you will start calling and appear in no where??

Remember all the things we wanted, now all our memories are haunted.

We were always meant to say goodbye even with our fists held high.

It never would have work out right, we were never meant for do or die.
I didn't want us to burn out, i didn't come here to hurt you now, but i just can't stop. .

I want you to know that it doesn't matter, where we take this road but someone's gotta go.

And i want you to know, you couldn't have loved me better, but i want you to move on.

Looking at you makes it harder but i know that you'll find another.

That doesn't always make you wanna cry, it started with the perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in.

"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive, you know that i love you so, i love you enough to let you go. You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong.

26.11.09

Woke up early in the morn, help boy do his posting. . damn shagg . . Chatted with him on the phone yst night, lol say wad, he wanna move in.. and feed me ?? If it's real, i guess my life would be miserable, becuz he always nag nagg my god!! And i'm independent, i can take care of myself and survive my on own;p Just please take good care of ur own:) Headed off to holland village for interview, :) and both Elsie and me got that job, start work on the 2nd of December (next Wednesday) at Orchard Ion, nice pay and good working environment but we are still struggling whether we should pick up this job anot because there's another offering us to work with them. . hummm, gonna think properly about it. Tml, its Kris, Match and Kang wei's turn to interview, hope they can pass the interview and join us if possible. . Good luck guys. .

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 6:25 PM

Yiss, Graduating Prom night 2009..

@ 7:04 AM

Watched, "2012" with mum and brother"

23.11.09

Called for reception interview at The next salon. . thanks kimshui and bryan for the introduction. . Both Elsie and me will be going down Holland for interview on Wednesday. . Woke up ealy in the morn today, ate breakfast then headed off west mall for movie with mum and bro, we watched 2012, nice show , tear out when watching. . Reached home around 5plus, boy called, quarrel again. . Always and always you said i anyhow seat other ppl's car. . I know u dun like it when i choose to seat my friend's car rather than call you again, go down your place, take money from you and then take cab home myself, as the atm was down yst and i cant withdraw the money you transferred. But i also have my own friends to be with. . I know the best what i've did, and what i'm doing. . Can't you just give me that little bit of trust?. .

22.11.09

Lol, Didn't sleep well for the last few nights, damn shagg. . Woke up and headed down to lot for our dinner with elsie then went down town to searched for chicky boy's mask. Crazy us, both of us were damn poor this two days, elsie had a small quarrel with her prince and she wasn't in the mood, after we brought the mask, we wanted to go back but while walking towards the bus stop, we came by cathay, with $30 we decided to catch a movie first. So both of us went up and get our tickets, lol and we didn't realize that the seat we got was actually couple seats. . Elsie laugh out loud when we noticed, so funny lo. . Time was getting late and both of us left with 10 buck, we cant even take cab home lo, after the show we set outside cathay. Left with no choice, i msg chicky boy asked him to transfer me money, while waiting for boy, kimshui called and he said he's able to fetch us back. So i msg boy asked him not to transfer me the money but he insisted. When the guys reached, we headed off to pasir ris park to have a drink then teck whye for supper. Prince came down to fetch elsie while kim shui fetched me back home. Thanks guys, if wasn't u, we would have stuck at town until the next morn. Hope this kind of things won't happen to the both of us once more. . poor us:(

We watched "A Christmas Carol"

Thursday, November 19, 2009 @ 10:37 PM

我没有很努力要自己去遗忘 ,那些和日记一起收藏的过往, 孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长.
想, 我没有很刻意让自己不去想, 那些和照片一起静止的模样.
我学着坚强, 坚强到不用学着不想, 学着遗忘.
不能放纵爱你, 就放过自己. . .

Woke up early in the morn today, online msn and uploaded some wedding photos and video. Waited for elsie and kris to called then headed to town help chicky boy buy his top up card, but didn't sell so went over to cine and sign fred perry membership for my brother. Then walk over to hong kong cafe and have our dinner, saw ah gan and guys. . I thought i can give a smile to him but i failed . . Always wondering, how would i feel if i get to see you after our separation. . There's nothing for us to feel shy or sorry when we saw each other, although we had a failed relationship but there's no hurts even hates anymore, am i right? Without you, i might felt lonely when night reaches, no one to talk to, no one to accompany me for dinner, no one beside when i'm watching tv even when i sleep. But i've already use to it. .

Attend Cui and X.xiong's wedding yesterday:). . have funs. . damn touching omg almost tear out when the morning photos was out at her wedding dinner. . All the best to you our dearest girl, with loves. .