Switched off my phone for 2days, woke up in the early morn, logged in msn, didn't expect boy to be online. Once i logged in he msn me, talk lot ab my exams and my dad, everyone around me knew very well that my relationship between my dad and me is simply like an beautiful book cover with nothing but blank pages inside, i will nvr forgive how he treat us in the past. In my heart, there's only my mum, bro and friends, he stands nothing in it. So even if u tells him that i didn't attend for my exams, worst to worst i just don''t get a single cent from him. I didn't blame u for telling him all thats happen, i knew u care but sorry, no matter what he said to me, i will not have any feeling to it and i won't listen to whatever shit from him. Yes, i admit i will cry and feels sad whenever i talk ab him, but all my tears is about the hates i had from him. U asked me how about you? why i didn't listen to what u say and how am i going to explain about this, all i can answer u is, i always listen to what u says no matter its right or wrong, u should know the best, i said i will go for my next exam mean i will. And do u know my sch fees is about 9hundred plus, i don't want u to waste that money on me, time is tight, i know i will disappoint u. Please keep the money, worst to worst i just don't get the cert cause i know this isn't that important to me anymore and all i need is u. I always need u to reminds me and tells me what im going to do next is not becuz im not mature enough to think, it is becuz i dun wish to think. You will nvr understand how i feel, all this months loneliness hold me too tight and im tired of thinking what to do next. I can say, u are the only one who gave me that motivation in everything i do after another failed relationship. U appeared, led me towards my future and started to make me think for myself.  Remembering u asking me to look into the mirror and asked myself if all i said and think is an gd excuse giving up my own future, yes u are right im only finding excuses to give up . :)Thanks my dear  for waking me up once again, though sometimes i felt hurt and stress when i had to face u and friends and ppl around thinks that u are not that someone worth for my everything but in my heart i knew it. Ppl might say that im blinded they can oso say that i'm silly but i just want to be one. Its okay about yst's dinner, i know ur hp is dead and i've ate it super full with ur brothers and they accompanied me the whole night till i fells asleep. And i've brought u the perfume, u said u will use wad i brought for u want horr and u better use it!!! Meet up tonight maybe??

Cant wake up for exams today, boring, chicky boy called me and scold until...... my god, now i got forbid for exams man, stress. . He complained to mum that i nvr go for exams oso shaggg. . okok boy i promise next exams i sure will go okay, maths and science i really gave up, nothing in my mind now . . blank blank like that i really dun noe how to face the exams damn STRESS!!!!! WAD AM I GOING TO DO?? What else can i do to make u feel that i care, to make u feel happy and enough. . dun wish to quarrel with u and im compromising everything i can for u. . I felt so hurt sometimes. . I promise i won always go nana or go drink okay, dun bring that up again. . sorry . . god bless us please. . :(

25.10.09

Whoohhoo!!! NANA last night, my love Elise celebrate her birthday @ there, happi birthday gal:)

Reach home in the morn, chicky msg me, boring quarrel again, kept questioning and say wad i anyhow seat other ppl's car go home all this and that. After that he ask me to go over his place, and its a must to reach by 11.15am, lucky this time nvr late if not i guess we are going to quarrel again. Brought chicken rice and herb tea for him, he's sick, helped him to post some work things then both of us watched tv, and fall asleep around 7plus. Woke up around 10plus, kris called, asking us to follow her down illzion, but my dear boy's sick, how how how to go?? After that he asked me go mam man but, i shy so i continue sleeping, till mid mum called, chick asked me to ans her phone as my phone was beside him, wah god lo, damn angry, both me and chick's 4D opened we brought 3594. .our no really opened le but no jump and not only 1pair, its 3pair of the same no that opened!! 4D opened, 4935, 3945 and 9453 but only our 3549 nvr open argghhh. . Forget it i guess next time we should buy ourself and not asking others help us buy 4D. Lots of ppl called too 16miss calls shagg man, called them back one by one after that decided to msg them as chick was sleeping soundly, dun wanna wake him up. Drag till 4plus 5 then fall back to sleep. 

Using smiles to leave your embrace, i resign myself to fate. 

The last trump card is in my hand, a one out of two probability.

I cannot indulge into loving you, that will just mean giving up myself.

Well loving me or not doesn’t matter anymore, it just hurts a little. 

I hate that little cleverness you had that i can hardly see. You have those bad tempers that i can endlessly talk about.

I hate that i love you.. I love you just because you are you.

There are old memories of you that i can’t take away.

26.10.06

Woke up early in the morn, chicky boy asked me to eat breakfast, no mood to eat lo, but no choice he pour a bottle of water asked me to drink while he hot the food, i logged in fb while eating, and there he nag again. So i listen to him log out, eat first then play:( . .After eating, we slept again until 10plus, i have to go back home and prepare for exams. Didn't really want to go, msg, chick and told him i'm not going, ended up being scold again. . He say, he really dun noe wan use wad phrase to say me. humm. . damn shagg . . when i reach sch, i realy dun wish to go in and then, i decided to RAN. . Headed to dajie's place chatted with her, lol long time nvr saw her liao, her dog so cute lo.  After that, alen send me back home. . Wad a day. . god please bless my dear boy, us and everyone. . Stupid boy, must get well soon ok, and daddy ask u, dun late late sleep, dun keep drink drink okay:). .Tired, going back to sleep again. .byee

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COMING UP NEXT

12.10.09

Happy birthday Yuwei

Received call from bee early in the morn asking if i wanna go fishing with him and both his friend at pasir ris park. Then waited for him to come back from his camp and all of us headed to fish. . Lol End up bee's friend caught 2small and 1 big fishes and our dear bee didn't even catch one, he was "feeding" fishes for the whole night.
10.09.09

Then went back home the next morning, sleep for a few hours, woke up by chicky boy's msg then ton ton and ah wei came to my place and so i woke up and chat with them. After they left i went down to get some food and help chicky buy his things, stupid boy, though nowadays i'm super broke but don't worry about me, without money i can still survive staying at home u better save ur money for emergency uses and u still got to go work, u don;t have to give me money. .Fall back to sleep, woke up on the eve ask bee help me buy 4D lol, i brought 8987, 3rd price open 8937!!! AGrgghh. . $1000 fly. . Headed to NaNa at night celebrate cuiyun's birthday. . gal happi birthday to u may ur wishes come true:) When going, lol saw edison, wave bye to him then went jurong acc elise and guys for breakfast then went back home. . super tired. .

Last min, pouring heavily today, didn't attend school again. Early in the morn, chicky boy ask if i want acc him go sign phone, end up lots of problems came out so i left to west mall alone to help him see his phone. Called elsie while i was alone at there felt so lonely. Lucky, my dear sister's coming over hahas, end up met elsie, kris and xiong at west mall also then all 3 of us headed to csc sing after asking chicky boy's hp rates. . Sang all the way until 8 plus 9 at night, so tired, asked them over my place and we start drinking, after all of them left, left me drinking alone. .Got a bit giddy now, but still i'm awake, no worries:) All this months there are so much so much of things to let me thought of and now there's more, more and more and more problem's coming out. .Boy, i really hope u can stand up and face every single problem, we are all here accompanying u go through everything, u dun have to hide becuz u still have us around. I know u felt very guilty about every single help i did, but u dun have to becuz i still remember when i'm alone and needed help, u are the one who is encouraging, talking to me consoling me and now i'm returning everything i can to u. Its not the end of the world, if there's a problem, there will be a way to settle. .

     Found these random photos in my com:)

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to. 

As i paced back and forth all this time cause I honestly believed in you.
Holding on the days, drag on and on...Stupid girl, I should've know...

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale, i was a dreamer before you went and let me down.

Maybe I was naive and i got lost in your eyes. 

My mistake, I didn't know how to be in love you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me, Happy endings, Well now I know
This is a big world, that was a small town...