Wednesday, October 12, 2011 @ 2:00 AM
想起你電話來時的表情, 想起從前愛你的聲音.
想起總是微微笑的你, 想起從前愛你的調皮.
想起, 如果沒有遇見你, 想起從前愛你的甜言蜜語..
面對著自己, 背對離去的你, 我已失去...
I missed your tent skin, your sweet smile, so closed to me, so right..
12.10.11
B.Y.W
Time really flies, just a blink of an eye its already 11years seen we first know each other, 4years back when we started out a loving relationship and ended off 2yrs back. Flashed back the little things we used to do, those memories that we've created tgt, had a view of our blog and recalled every single word that u've said to me really melts my heart. We really really been through a very hard time to be tgt yet just because of that unsecured feelings i had in me changed everything in us, that moment i really didn't know how i managed to get over u, till then i realized that u've nvr left my heart before. I know and i really felt how much u had for me in the past and i do have got like millions and billions of words and phrase's to say to u and how i wished i would have stand in front of u, saying i'm sorry for that eve but i didn't and i just cant..
Boy i'm truly sorry, that u gave me roses and i left them there to die, u gave me all ur loved and all i said was goodbye.. Uncertainly even after i choose to leave, i really did struggle alot throughout and i hope u know u are not alone and not the only one in pain. I hated myself even more when u said u've nvr blame me and even after yrs when u met up with my friend, randomly u are still saying ab my goods.. I knew it and i really knew i shouldn't make this mistake of leaving u and if we love again i swear i'll love u right.. Some times i had this very strong feelings that we are meant to know each other cuz it cant be so coincident that after separating for 2yrs contacting each other only when comes to our birthday and so happened that i can still saw u on train without u noticing and continuously met up wit u cuz my mum moved hus n u are working directly at her hus dwnstairs, guess its something that unavoidably befalls and 'fated' is the only great word to be used. But what has past had already past, i know there's nothing i can do to turn back time or to change things as believed there's always a reason why god made things happen.
Thinking back, though we only started out after knowing each other for like 8yrs and lasted this relationship for only 2yr plus but without fail u will always be there for me whenever i needed. Remembering u questioning me if we are lost and ended at the top of a cliff, i supposed that i'm falling down, u were holding on my hands but i knew it that there nothing u can do to save me up, wad would be my last word or action i will say or give to u? i didnt ans ur question but i asked u back and u said "I will make faces to make u laugh cuz even if im dying, i also don't wanna see u cry". It's naive to say that for my 22yrs of my life this is the most touching words i've ever heard of.. Times when we are not even tgt yet even helped me paid for my hus holds when my family was in bad situation, accompanied me cried and watched 我的失忆男友 for 5times without any complains, lend ur hands to me when i had troubles, so on and so for.. Thanks for all u did all these yrs, u brought me that priceless happiness and feelings which i can nvr find and get from others, led me through that dark childhood and in all my life i swear these little things would be reside in my heart no matter how far apart we are.. Now that we all have our own ways to move on and we can nvr know wads going to happen in the next min, let god, fate and natural take cause ba.. Sincerely wish u all the best and a very happy birthday and i know u will wish me good as well right:).. May god lead u to a better and smoother life..
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