Tuesday, February 9, 2010 @ 9:04 PM
09.02.10
Had a quarrel early in the mid at dear house, hate it whenever he say work work work!! Really bad, feels like all the devil's in my mind at that moment.. f* it.. Guess i should get a new job after cny to prevent arguments again, think i'm too free after all. Received msg from chicky, asking if i would like to help up on their models make up on Vogue Xcusive.. and this should be the 3rd time i've rejected him, friend, i feel bad and sry about it but i do have my own reasons for not handling this job for now, hope u can understand. Wasn't in the mood for anything, leaving my phone at aside and slept for the whole afternoon.. Thinking through everything ab us, ab this relationship, everyone's out there thought the both of us had a strong and loving relationship, even the both of us were blinded over yet no one else knows it actually contains quarrels and arguments. Yes in every relationship there will be quarrels and arguments, but for us, in this short 2months, it has been too much of all this shits. Say that i've regret, no i'm not, i choose this so there won't be regrets in me, how about u? We've planned so far, savings, marriage and babies but how can we last this way? Its not ur fault, i guess i've loved u too much, in the first place i told u not to treat me so well because i know if there's any dirts in our relationship i cant really accept it. I can always always tells any else one how to hold a relationship, but i couldn't do it on my own because i'm a girl which needed more love, care and concern from my love ones than anyone else and i know this hold onto u too tight esp when u have got lots of stressfulness in ur work.. U asked me to give u a chance to try, but think and think and think, i should be the one trying, trying to compromise more cause i always believed that we could work things out.. And now that i've learned this, when arguments comes around its because we wanted to hold on each other, when there's quarrels its because we love and care of each other.. Hope there will be better changes and a better way out down the road of our love..
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